i've got nowhere to go

Things are way too hard. I don't know what to do anymore ever. I want nothing but for this person to be happy and they are, but I'm still not. I am sad every day and it doesn't feel like it will ever get better. I just want everything to stop hurting. I'm trying but it's hard to carry on managing with everything on top of me all at once. 


Someone showed me a video of you and it made me cry. Sometimes I come up with romantic gestures and I want nothing but to try and win you back but I know as much as I wish it wasn't, it would be in vain. I don't have anything, anymore. It feels like my safety net got taken away and all I am doing is trying to balance. I'm sick of hearing "It will get better, missing someone will go in time." It won't.